mommy love.

happy 50th birthday mom!

ranting.

i finally got my brain back.

somewhere during the spring and throughout the summer, i happen to have misplaced my brain, but rest assure, its back and i think better than ever.

school's back.
i'm going on my 3rd week, already!
its going by fast
but i'm keeping busy.

vegas was fun for the most part.
just hella hot and as far as gambling, that place put a hole in my pocket.
the wedding was beautiful, i had tears coming down, i couldn't help myself.
im lame when it comes to weddings.
hanging out with the fambam is always a pleasure.
ill be back in a couple weeks, holller!

its funny how people's mindset are when they go to vegas,
they put they're lives on hold, and party for days, and then come sunday
and they get back to reality.
so i guess thats what i did, i said fuck whatever i was going thru in cali,
i'm in vegas for 2 days, let me fucckin live.
i ate like a pig, i drank, smoked my lungs out, and gambled money i could of used for
schoool.

now monday came, and i was back on track.
tuesday came, and i was on point with shit.
and before long i get a "it was nice knowing you"
i had to laugh. i thought maybe. but lets move on now.
i just think wayy too much it gets me in trouble.
but dont judge the way i am with how i think.
its comes with the package. i'm a slow psych major
but i make sense.

on to other things.
the bay area was callin out to me this weekend.
but with no funds, i had to passs.
but soon SF, sooon.

i also wanna take a trip to Seattle,
we have a new edition to the Esguerra clan.
koah london esguerra born 9/11 @ 11pm 7lbs 11oz.
born to michael and lindsay esguerra.
so i have a reason to go up there too.
and one more edition in the next couple weeks.
babies everywhere!

theres a piece of my life.
its boring.
but i have fans.
so there you have it.

changes must be made

vegas for the weeekend, with my other family.
avy and pat's wedding extravaganza in the city of sin.
how awesome is that! finally after 10 years, they tie the knot.
anyways, we leave friday morning.
apparently we have this agenda, to get as fucked up as we can.
oh and to get some sun before we head out to TAO friday night.
then saturday recover, until the wedding in the afternoon.
wedding, then reception, then PURE.
then back to reality of long beach on sunday.
then monday comes, and I AM goin to start a new life.
seriously it takes a look mirror to fucckin realize shit.
i'm done, i'm doing well, but i need to push more.
i need more motivation.
i need more strength.
i need drive.
i need me to focus on me, and not on anyone else.

my happiness should only come first.
and YOU were right.
in order for me to love someone, i must love me and be comfortable with me.


i want to say more, but i'm done.
i gotta clean my closet, drawers, and bed.
i'm tired.
schoool.
schoool.
and more schoool.

i need employment, as well.

aww the memories.

the definition of the night, led to this statement.

"throwing up the alcohol is making me really high"


dimerz reunion, made me wanna tear`
and i'm only a dimer` familyy.
HA!


"summertime, in the LBC"
awww the good days.

loyal fan base.

i'm not diggin how i'm still gettin haunted by my past.
i've actually lived a better life without the unwanted drama
and mistakes i've made before.
i'm happy now.

yes alright this blog has an easy trace for you fuckers to
read into whatever it is that's going down in my life.
but shit, take it easy. i've forgot about you and you should forget about me.
but i'll tell you one thing, i do enjoy waking up in the morning with
thoughts about my present day life, and things i wanna look forward to in the future.
while your no life, snooping around fuckers, check up on me.
thanks you, kindly.



this is for you.

ahhh yes.

here i am, again.

read me, write to me, or just be.

i've got thoughts and rants i must vent out.

this is my source.

yadigg?!

goodnight.