Tuesday, September 23, 2008

extravagante` weeek.

its almost 3am.
and im singing "here i am stuck in the middle with you".
not sure why, maybe it was in a commercial, but "here i am stuck in the middle with you"

so with all the unexpected events that happen to go my wayy last week, i needed this weekend to have fun and spend time with my girls, and by golly, what an eventful close to a horrible week.

thank you darryll and arthur gonzales for throwing an awesome party on friday with awesome folks, good vibes, backyard fun, smoke out sessions, shotguns, shots, and a endless amount of beer.
i reconnected with a bunch of people i haven't seen in years, made some new friends, and had no worries to take care of anyone, twas a night of having a grand ole` time.

saturday, woke up still feeeling hella faded. spent time with my parents, and had lunch at my nanay's where i spent most of the time listening to them rant about the problems that exist in my grandparents house, i couldn't help but wanna cry when my grandma started to cry, boo.
that night, we had a girls only sleepover at anaheim, well duh what else would we talk about,
relationships, sex, drugs, and alcohol. i fell asleep peacefully at 6am.

sunday i slept all day.
i didnt' watch my tfc.
i slept, and slept.
till there was no more sleepin involved.

there you go, my weeekend.
nothing extravagante`
but fuck it, im tired.
i wanna get in depth with you all
but thats going to wait.
i spent too much time on a myspace bulletin.
hahahahahah, i'm lame.

goodweek folks`

Monday, September 15, 2008

mommy love.

happy 50th birthday mom!

Saturday, September 13, 2008


i finally got my brain back.

somewhere during the spring and throughout the summer, i happen to have misplaced my brain, but rest assure, its back and i think better than ever.

school's back.
i'm going on my 3rd week, already!
its going by fast
but i'm keeping busy.

vegas was fun for the most part.
just hella hot and as far as gambling, that place put a hole in my pocket.
the wedding was beautiful, i had tears coming down, i couldn't help myself.
im lame when it comes to weddings.
hanging out with the fambam is always a pleasure.
ill be back in a couple weeks, holller!

its funny how people's mindset are when they go to vegas,
they put they're lives on hold, and party for days, and then come sunday
and they get back to reality.
so i guess thats what i did, i said fuck whatever i was going thru in cali,
i'm in vegas for 2 days, let me fucckin live.
i ate like a pig, i drank, smoked my lungs out, and gambled money i could of used for

now monday came, and i was back on track.
tuesday came, and i was on point with shit.
and before long i get a "it was nice knowing you"
i had to laugh. i thought maybe. but lets move on now.
i just think wayy too much it gets me in trouble.
but dont judge the way i am with how i think.
its comes with the package. i'm a slow psych major
but i make sense.

on to other things.
the bay area was callin out to me this weekend.
but with no funds, i had to passs.
but soon SF, sooon.

i also wanna take a trip to Seattle,
we have a new edition to the Esguerra clan.
koah london esguerra born 9/11 @ 11pm 7lbs 11oz.
born to michael and lindsay esguerra.
so i have a reason to go up there too.
and one more edition in the next couple weeks.
babies everywhere!

theres a piece of my life.
its boring.
but i have fans.
so there you have it.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

changes must be made

vegas for the weeekend, with my other family.
avy and pat's wedding extravaganza in the city of sin.
how awesome is that! finally after 10 years, they tie the knot.
anyways, we leave friday morning.
apparently we have this agenda, to get as fucked up as we can.
oh and to get some sun before we head out to TAO friday night.
then saturday recover, until the wedding in the afternoon.
wedding, then reception, then PURE.
then back to reality of long beach on sunday.
then monday comes, and I AM goin to start a new life.
seriously it takes a look mirror to fucckin realize shit.
i'm done, i'm doing well, but i need to push more.
i need more motivation.
i need more strength.
i need drive.
i need me to focus on me, and not on anyone else.

my happiness should only come first.

and YOU were right.
in order for me to love someone, i must love me and be comfortable with me.

i want to say more, but i'm done.
i gotta clean my closet, drawers, and bed.
i'm tired.
and more schoool.

i need employment, as well.